Saturday, February 19, 2022

Jealous Friends


Jealous Friend

I'm not a jealous person. So my mind and my heart can not understand what it is like to be jealous of another person.  I tend to walk away from any of that behavior.  When I see someone on success.  I have to not just look at success but the work and effort and time that it took to get to that present victory they are experiencing.    

I have been doing Youtube since 2014 and I still feel like I'm working and struggling and plowing to get to a victory line.  But what really is success?  Some will say on Youtube that if you hit a million subscribers that you made it.  I see content creators looking at themselves still not being satisfied with that victory.   Other may see you are successful but you see yourself as a person that is still struggling, suffering through, and still limited or even inadequate.  

The reality  success is viewed different from the person that is being seen.  To the person that is seeing..  People may see me and think wow what a great life.  My experience maybe different.   I see the journey.  I see the suffering.  I see the determination.  I may see with all the work I am doing, that I'm still not where I want to be.   

I think jealous friend want what other have but are not willing to put the work in.   They just want it as if they deserve it or as if it is owed to them.    Without the time or energy to get it.  Jealous friends will join you and speak sweet words to you so they can use you and benefits from you.  They will be flatters and judges behind your back.  They will act like your cheerleader while they complain about you when they see you faults.  They are wanting to see your failures so they can  calm that jealous heart of theirs. 

Jealous friends are selfish and self-seeking and destructive and thieves.  They friend you so they can steal from you.  Trying to get it without the effort; without the Time; without the determination.  They are line cutter and cheaters of systems.   River riders willing to allow the current push them.  Quitters when they have to push themselves and go against the current.  

I have learned some wonderful lessons... Jealous friends will always be jealous... they will never shine in their own light when they keep wanting yours.  They will never blossom when they are focused on your growth.  

Jealous friends are not something that is part of me.  Let them see me.  Let them complain about me.  Let them be who they really are behind my back.   They know who they are.  Sadly they can never be free... 

We all may want what someone else has.  Consider deeply..   A family member said I want to do what you do I said okay well .. let’s talk editing.. let’s talk equipment expense… let’s talk time.. let’s talk working for nothing for a year.. let’s talk doing something when no one even sees you.  All you have is cost and no gain.. Not just for a couple days but for years. When you all in and nothing to show for it.   Then 7 years later,  20 years later you.. you start getting seen! 

What are you really jealous my friend.   

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